I haven’t been up at this time in ages and ages…  Ever since I started working I think…

Working life changes you.

I was telling the dar that I used to blog more when I was a professional bummer. No… I used to blog a whole lot more when I was a professional bummer. (1 post a week now, if I’m in a good enough mood… such a shame)

But it’s not just the sleeping pattern that changes. Nor how much time you spend online.

Working and independence changes the way you relate to people, respond to them, and how you think of them. Even God.

He’s been fading in and out of my mind throughout my working life… And I was fine with that. I never expected Him to crash so suddenly back into my main consciousness. I know He set it up. I know He set me up.

The lesson He’d been meaning to teach me. The lesson that I’d been ponning, for as long as I’ve known. I hoped that if I skipped it often enough, I’d never need to learn it this lifetime. I can’t believe I was caught, and strapped into my seat, with the books piled in front of me.

The voice inside of me cries out, God, I can’t do it! Please don’t make me do it. It’s too painful.

I said to my dar, Things are getting harder.

The dar reminded me that it is during hard times that we learn to depend on God, and watch as He moves the mountains around us.

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